Everyone has their insecurities

I don't care how confident you are, and not to sound arrogant I am a confident person. I used to not be when I was younger, but I am now. However no matter how confident you are everyone have something they do not like about themselves, even myself. I hate the fact that I am losing my hair so young, and I hate the way my face looks when I am fat so much. Even when I am trim I have what they call a chuberic face, so it make it so much worse when I am big. Though I have learned something about myself throughout this journey. Even though I do not like it does not mean it bothers me. I have found that most of this comes when dealing with the opposite sex. When it comes to friends I would not want to associate with people who care how I look. However I have overcome these insecurities . I think this comes with maturity. I am at the point in my life where I do not want things to be supercritical. Moreover I am changing myself for the correct reasons this time.

The last time I set off to lose weight my sophomore year in college it was purely to attract the opposite sex. I was young what can I say. Now I am doing it for me, and I am almost sure it is going to stick this time. I love my new life style, and my new life. After being devastated about a year ago, and having to rise from the ashes, I have moved headlong to my goal. Things are building the pieces are coming into place. Things are coming together slowly. I have reconnected with old friends, and made a bunch of new real good ones. My life is building to a crescendo, and I think that in the next six to eight months there is going to be positive impacts that are going to be long lasting.

As always I thank you all for the support. It makes the journey so much easier. I weighed in today, and am 215 I am doing well and hope to be under 200 pounds soon.

Anthony

Find a sport you like

Yesterday I weighed in again. I was at 219 that makes it a 4 pound loss and a total of six pounds in two weeks. I think something that helped me a lot this week is that I found something I am having fun with. I have always enjoyed weight lifting. It is a constant challenge, and to me gives me a ton of energy and takes away any stress. However I needed something to do for Cardio. Even when I was very skinny I never had a runners body. I am also flat footed. So I decided on a whim to go take a bike ride. I could not believe how hard it was. (I am out of shape of course), and how fun it is. The most I have done on a trail is 6 miles. Somehow on a stationary bike I can go all day until the cows come home. I decided I wanted to do this to supplement my Gym time. Has anyone ever seen a fat cyclist?

The thing that also makes me love it is that I get to go outside. I am even sun burnt, and It's great. I think this will keep me maintained when I get to the maintenance phase, and push past any plateau I have. I hope to be less than 200 by the time I get to the keys. I have also been good about going to the gym, and have not let up. It's the first thing I do when I wake up after I eat some oat meal.

People say oh I have so much energy now, and I used to think it was bull sit, but changing the way you eat and doing daily exercise has really changed my energy level.

I have also learned a lot about nutrition which as helped me. Which is great in these stressful times of launching a business.