Everyone has their insecurities

I don't care how confident you are, and not to sound arrogant I am a confident person. I used to not be when I was younger, but I am now. However no matter how confident you are everyone have something they do not like about themselves, even myself. I hate the fact that I am losing my hair so young, and I hate the way my face looks when I am fat so much. Even when I am trim I have what they call a chuberic face, so it make it so much worse when I am big. Though I have learned something about myself throughout this journey. Even though I do not like it does not mean it bothers me. I have found that most of this comes when dealing with the opposite sex. When it comes to friends I would not want to associate with people who care how I look. However I have overcome these insecurities . I think this comes with maturity. I am at the point in my life where I do not want things to be supercritical. Moreover I am changing myself for the correct reasons this time.

The last time I set off to lose weight my sophomore year in college it was purely to attract the opposite sex. I was young what can I say. Now I am doing it for me, and I am almost sure it is going to stick this time. I love my new life style, and my new life. After being devastated about a year ago, and having to rise from the ashes, I have moved headlong to my goal. Things are building the pieces are coming into place. Things are coming together slowly. I have reconnected with old friends, and made a bunch of new real good ones. My life is building to a crescendo, and I think that in the next six to eight months there is going to be positive impacts that are going to be long lasting.

As always I thank you all for the support. It makes the journey so much easier. I weighed in today, and am 215 I am doing well and hope to be under 200 pounds soon.

Anthony