Weight Smoking Bachelors . Putting a plan in place to finish my BA

Weight Smoking Bachelors . Putting a plan in place to finish my BA

Big Break?

Well things have been interesting to say the least. I have had a atypical week. I can at least say that much. On Tuesday I went to the second interview for a Job that is pretty much my dream job. I thin it went well I had two people talked to me, and I looked great in my suit. I could fit in it again, and looked really good in it if I do say so myself. Well after the interview I was told to give them a call back, and they would tell me how to progress. I then later that day revived an e-mail that asked me to fill out information in regards to a background check. I have nothing to worry about since I have no criminal history (not even close), but I do have not so hot credit. Well I was told that it would take 3-5 days. I have not revived a rejection letter since then, but have not heard back from them. I have called them three times, and sent an e-mail. Well all I can say is that I am very anxious right now.

I'm going to guess that if I do not hear back from them on Monday this is a sign that they did send me a letter but through the real mail and not the fake mail. Though there is a chance that the call comes on Tuesday. I don't think I have ever wanted anything so bad in my life, and this would be the biggest break I have ever had. I'm not going to lie if I get a rejection letter it would suck. They say don't get your hopes up to much, but I have. It is just such a game changer if I get this I will finally be back in the game, and progressing my social and professional life much further. However I gave it my best shot, and really did go all out. Better to try, and fail then to have never tried at all.

On the issue of weight I am doing well I will weigh myself tomorrow. I was 210 last time I looked getting close to being under 200's I feel better than I have in a very long time. Though I am still sore from some of the things I did on Friday. Yes Friday. It's like they say no Pain no Gain. Well at lest all the Roid Duche bags say that, but it is true. If your feeling it the next morning you did a good job.

Anthony C.

Big Week

I have not written in a while, but I am going to do so now. It is Sunday, and I got back a bit ago. I went to the park with some friends, and we had a great time. I am starting to really like it in Palm Coast there are great people here. Some people may think that there is nothing to do here, but I find that I have things to do more often than not, and Orlando, Tampa, and Daytona are not very far away.

With that being said Tuesday is the most important day of my professional career. I have the biggest interview of my life, and if I get this job I will have fully recovered from the shit storm that was my break up. Tuesday is do or die, and I plan on doing. Like I said in an earlier post things have been building to a crescendo, and my comeback will be that much closer to complete. Tuesday will be a win big or go home moment so I better bring my game, and win. If I do get this job it will present challenges with my weight loss. Working a "nine to five" job changes the whole ball game when it comes to working out, and I am worried that I will gain all my weight back if I get this job.

I can not and will not allow that to happen. By the end of this year I want to have a job in a field I want to be in like this one, and be at my goal weight. There is nothing more important to me than that, and I am going to claw and fight my way to it. I've been knocked down many times in my recent life, but as Rocky Balboa said life is not about how many times you get knocked down. It is about how many times you get back up. I keep getting up, and this time I am going for a knock out.

Everyone has their insecurities

I don't care how confident you are, and not to sound arrogant I am a confident person. I used to not be when I was younger, but I am now. However no matter how confident you are everyone have something they do not like about themselves, even myself. I hate the fact that I am losing my hair so young, and I hate the way my face looks when I am fat so much. Even when I am trim I have what they call a chuberic face, so it make it so much worse when I am big. Though I have learned something about myself throughout this journey. Even though I do not like it does not mean it bothers me. I have found that most of this comes when dealing with the opposite sex. When it comes to friends I would not want to associate with people who care how I look. However I have overcome these insecurities . I think this comes with maturity. I am at the point in my life where I do not want things to be supercritical. Moreover I am changing myself for the correct reasons this time.

The last time I set off to lose weight my sophomore year in college it was purely to attract the opposite sex. I was young what can I say. Now I am doing it for me, and I am almost sure it is going to stick this time. I love my new life style, and my new life. After being devastated about a year ago, and having to rise from the ashes, I have moved headlong to my goal. Things are building the pieces are coming into place. Things are coming together slowly. I have reconnected with old friends, and made a bunch of new real good ones. My life is building to a crescendo, and I think that in the next six to eight months there is going to be positive impacts that are going to be long lasting.

As always I thank you all for the support. It makes the journey so much easier. I weighed in today, and am 215 I am doing well and hope to be under 200 pounds soon.

Anthony

Find a sport you like

Yesterday I weighed in again. I was at 219 that makes it a 4 pound loss and a total of six pounds in two weeks. I think something that helped me a lot this week is that I found something I am having fun with. I have always enjoyed weight lifting. It is a constant challenge, and to me gives me a ton of energy and takes away any stress. However I needed something to do for Cardio. Even when I was very skinny I never had a runners body. I am also flat footed. So I decided on a whim to go take a bike ride. I could not believe how hard it was. (I am out of shape of course), and how fun it is. The most I have done on a trail is 6 miles. Somehow on a stationary bike I can go all day until the cows come home. I decided I wanted to do this to supplement my Gym time. Has anyone ever seen a fat cyclist?

The thing that also makes me love it is that I get to go outside. I am even sun burnt, and It's great. I think this will keep me maintained when I get to the maintenance phase, and push past any plateau I have. I hope to be less than 200 by the time I get to the keys. I have also been good about going to the gym, and have not let up. It's the first thing I do when I wake up after I eat some oat meal.

People say oh I have so much energy now, and I used to think it was bull sit, but changing the way you eat and doing daily exercise has really changed my energy level.

I have also learned a lot about nutrition which as helped me. Which is great in these stressful times of launching a business.

For the next 30 days.

You guys recall the guy who ate Mcdonalds for a month. Well I was thinking about that, and I thought that I would give myself a challenge. For the next 30 days I am not going to eat meat, or anything that is bad for me. I have gone to the gym for the past 4 days in a row, and I have 26 more to go. They say you make a habit of something if you do it 30 days in a row, so here is hoping that sticks.

I am sore all over, but have to keep it up every day using different muscle groups. Pin is temporary life style change is forever. 180 seems so far away. I have to keep pushing myself, and not give up this time. There are people who are in a lot worse shape than I am who have lost a lot more weight than I have. It may take six seven months. Something that keeps me focued is I have been taking a picture of myself ever Sunday, and hopefully one day show a time lapse video on You Tube to all my friends, and maybe inspire some people to become healthy. You don't lose weight to be healthy, you get healthy to lose weight.

No meat, Gym every day....for the next 30 days well 26 I have already done 4.

A game of inches

Life like Al Pacino said in a famous football movie is just a game of inches. Today was my first weigh in and I lost two pounds. Very good for a first week. I have 43 more to go. Some people might not have been happy with two pounds. I wish it was better sure, but it is better than nothing. I am going to take it however I can get it. Rome was not built in a day, and this time I am going to keep fighting. Mile on the treadmill by mile. Rep on the weight machine by rep. Push up by push up.

My two pounds may just be two but I am going to fight and claw my way to where I need to be. There is nothing that is going to stop me. Inch by mother fucking inch. I may have made mistakes in my past but that was then this is now. I am going to make it. A man who lives in the past does not live at all. This is my battle this is my journey my quest. In the end I am going to get to where I need to be. Because I know when I add up all those inches it's going to make the fucking difference.

On a side note thank you for all those who have commented on blog and have sent me private messages. You guys keep me going. Love you all

Anthony

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