The fairer sex

Day 2 of my journey that I hope continues my life time. I had a good Day one at the gym and hope to have a good second day. I feel much better was fighting a cold the first time so I should be able to do more this time around. My moral could be better , but I have to keep reminding myself that Rome was not built in a day and that getting out of this mess is going to take time. I am lucky that I met some very awesome people in Palm Coast that make this much easier to live here. I love it here but I hate it here.

I love it here because the weather is awesome I am so close to the beach and there is actually wild life here. I hate it here due to me not being here by choice , and being put in the situation that I am in. As I try to keep my head up it is sometimes hard when you go on a social networking sight and see people doing so well. Not that I do not feel happy for them any one that know me well knows that I am not a selfish person and love to see people happy and am truly happy for them. I really would like a job and to advance my social status. I should be starting a career instead of doing the things that I am doing here waiting for something to come my way so I can go to school and then after two years get a job that I would like.

I get lonely in Palm Coast a lot . Not as much as I used to when I did not have friends here. I do not miss my ex but it was nice having someone around all the time. I think as humans we all like to have mates and spend so much of our time looking for one.

As you may have read in my earlier posts I have gained and lost weight my whole life . I was a fat kid. Then lost all my weight about the time it was summer for middle school. Was skinny and in shape throughout high school. Was big in college and lost weight again in college. Then when I drooped out and was with my ex gained the most weight of my life. One thing remains true I have never had a girlfriend in my life as the big version of me. This either means that women are very superficial , or it has a lot to do with my confidence levels . I am pretty certain the latter is true. While the former may be true for some women , lets be certain that they are no where near as superficial as men.

I would like to lose this weight to live a longer time and if I do find someone that is for me to live with her for a long time. I am getting older where I care less for looks and more for someone that well one can share a life with. I know that one of you is reading this and thinking this is not the Anthony I know. Well I put up a good front. Heh. This Blog is keeping me motivated. Losing weight is part of my three step attack that I would like to finish in the next three years.

1. Goal Weight

2. B.A.

3. Well paying job in my field.

The last one I would like to accomplish as well but not in a strict timeline.

4. Find I nice female I can have fun with and go from there.

Gym tomorrow. Weigh in on Monday.

Anthony C.