Throughout this whole week I have been trying to find motivation. I think yeah my health but being relatively young that has not set in yet. I think of women , but then I think to myself would I really want to be with someone who would not like the overweight version of myself. I have musings of how great it would be to be 180 , finish my degree and have a family. Then something crosses my mind and I think what happens when I get there. Is there really a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Is it going to really be everything I wanted or just replaced with another set of goals, and turn into a viscous cycle of looking for things that I do not have and feeling inadequate for not having these things? To me this is an interesting question is this part of the natural human condition. I would like to think that unmotivated people still have things they want to do and want to better themselves. Is it just me because I am stuck in a situation that I am that I am desperate to get out of?
Is this the path to true happiness fitting in a medium t shirt having paper that can get me things and having a "mate". Will these things make me find enlightenment. Few people find true happiness and I tend to think that the most happy people on Earth are the ones who lead simpler lives.
Enough philosophy babble. I am doing good killing it at the gym. I did well with my eating save one day when I had Chinese take out which I still feel bad about. I should not let it get to me it is just one meal in a long journy
"By knowing things that exist, you can know that which does not exist."-Miyamoto Musashi
I used good instated of well. While I might not be the best person with grammar this is one of my pet peeves so please excuse that.
ReplyDeleteAC... seriously. Do you REALLY think you won't eat chinese food for the rest of your life? That's not very realistic. I think you need to stop beating yourself up about it. Good job at the gym! I've basically been going every other day, too. :)
ReplyDeleteWhat all do you do when you go to the gym?
I run a mile a do a circuit of weights. I did not mind the Chinese however I overate.
ReplyDeleteAlso awesome you going to gym as well :)
ReplyDeleteWell, the overeating part is bad. But it's a hard habit to break. I know you can do it!! ^_^
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